I love him

I can't believe that in just a span of less than 1 month, I'd be able to love someone deeply.

Entering into a relationship is totally out of my plan. I don't think I deserve that luxury.

Luxury of being loved and cared for. I used to think my destiny is to just work for the family.

Provide for my daughter and family. and that's it.

In one of my prayers while going through hardships in life, I said, Lord if there is someone you have prepared for me, huwag mo muna syang paparatingin ha. Baka hindi ko sya mapansin. Baka mapabayaan ko sya, unfair sa kanya. 

Everybody deserves to be loved whole heartedly. To be loved without inhibitions.

Then he came.

Out of the blue, he just came.

Started with a single friend request in Facebook. With only 1 mutual friend.

He is such a nice guy. Very polite. Very kind.

His sweet gesture got me.

I knew he's one of a kind.

He is a pilot.

He is a Christian.

A believer of God and Jesus Christ.

He is a single dad.

He is a widow.

I can sense that he is a good man.

He is respectful.

He always encourages me and cares for me.

I have done something bad towards him at the start of our friendship.

I rant about how bad my life is and how i think this will not work for us.

I tried driving him away. But the moment he asked "Do you want to cut me off?" my heart folded. 

He gives me assurance. He tells me that I was a gift from God. 

He says He prayed for a wonderful partner and I came. 

Both of us believes that God is the one who orchestrated our meeting.

Being in each other's life is like a gift from heaven. 

And we continuously pray for one another.

For God to bless the path in our journey and may the Lord allow us to be together to love and to care for one another, for as long as we both live.

I love him.

I really do.

Love that I haven't experience before.

And I pray to the Lord my God, to please have mercy on me. And grant me the chance to enjoy life with him. Life with Lancelot Tan.