Alam kong may magagawa ang Diyos!

Today is the last day of September, year twenty twenty-five. Mama is celebrating her 60th birthday today. As much as I want to provide for even the simplest celebration. I can't afford it. 

Sobrang dami ko man maling desisyon sa buhay. Lalo na sa aspeto ng pananalapi.

Maraming biyayang aking nasayang sa kakulangan ng desiplina at kaalaman.

Patawarin nawa ako ng Panginoong Diyos sa lahat ng aking nagawang mali.

Pero Lord! Nagmamakaawa po ako sa inyo. Iligtas Nyo ako sa kinasasadlakan kong suliranin ngayon.

Sa lahat ng aking utang Lord, hindi ko intensyon na hindi sila bayaran.

HIndi ko po intensyong magdala ng sama ng loob sa ibang tao.

Kaya Lord, Sa iyo at iyo lang ako laging aasa.

Sa lahat ng aking problema, ikaw lang at ikaw ang may kakayanang maglabas sa akin sa dusang aking kinakaharap.

Ikaw ang Panginoong naglabas sa iyong bayan sa Ehipto.

Ikaw ang Panginong nagbigay ng biyaya sa iyong bayan sa ilang.

Walang lingkod mo ang nagutom at namalimos na wala kang ginawa para sa kanila.

Ikaw na ang bahala sa akin Lord.

Hindi ko na rin alam anong magiging sunod kong hakbang sa buhay kong ito.

Patawarin mo po akong palagi.

Patawad Ama.

A never ending cycle

 Why do I feel like my life is a never ending cycle?

One moment I feel so filled I can feel it in my soul. Your voice, your presence Lord. I can fell it.

One moment I am into sinning I don't know how to stop.

And then again Your spirit will once again fill me again. And then the fire gets dim again.

And for a moment I will take peace and calm and quiet to be a sign you are with me.

I have a lot of mountains that I am not climbing yet.

There are mountains and challenges I haven't started yet.

But I feel peace.

At the back of my head one day it will blown up into my face but I still careless.

If it's a form of sin Lord please help me. 

I don't want to be confuse about what you wanted in my life and what is not.

Re-ignite that fire and make me a burning altar again.

Your burning altar Lord.

The ones that every thought and every emotions seeks you.

The one that always commune with your spirit Lord.

I hope to fell your presence all days of my life.

I like to live a life I can boast to the world that I haven't had it easy but the Lord my God sustained me.

September 24, 2025: Lord I messed up again!

 Dear Lord,

I messed up again.

Ang dami ko na naman maling desisyon sa buhay.

Sa trabaho, sa pera, at sa kung ano ano pa.

But I don't know, I have a sense of peace knowing that you are there for me.

No matter how chaotic, how messy my life right now. I know I have an assurance that you love me.

But of course, I don't want to abuse your goodness, your kindness Lord.

Naaadik ako sa online gambling Lord, I know you already know now. I am sorry.

All the money I spent there is a waste of the provision you have for me. Lord Sorry.

Sorry if mas umaasa pa ako sa sugal kesa sa provision mo. Kesa magtiwala ako sa'yo.

Am I bad to think that the winnings that I have there comes from you?

Sorry Lord for being such a mess...