A never ending cycle

 Why do I feel like my life is a never ending cycle?

One moment I feel so filled I can feel it in my soul. Your voice, your presence Lord. I can fell it.

One moment I am into sinning I don't know how to stop.

And then again Your spirit will once again fill me again. And then the fire gets dim again.

And for a moment I will take peace and calm and quiet to be a sign you are with me.

I have a lot of mountains that I am not climbing yet.

There are mountains and challenges I haven't started yet.

But I feel peace.

At the back of my head one day it will blown up into my face but I still careless.

If it's a form of sin Lord please help me. 

I don't want to be confuse about what you wanted in my life and what is not.

Re-ignite that fire and make me a burning altar again.

Your burning altar Lord.

The ones that every thought and every emotions seeks you.

The one that always commune with your spirit Lord.

I hope to fell your presence all days of my life.

I like to live a life I can boast to the world that I haven't had it easy but the Lord my God sustained me.